equip

( jacket BUFFALO EXCHANGE, shirt BANANA REPUBLIC, skirt TOPSHOP, boots STEVE MADDEN, earrings H&M )

EQUIP: 

1. To supply with necessities such as tools or provisions
2. To furnish (someone) with the qualities necessary for performance; prepare

There are certain road blocks I am hitting at this point of my life and need to better equip myself in order to move forward. I am always striving for self improvement and setting challenging goals that seem unattainable, when in reality it is my fears that stifle me. I now affirm that I can achieve these goals if I continue to pursue the opportunities that are ahead of me. There is always a way out from the road blocks and it's up to me to find my path of fulfillment. 

SHE CONSTANTLY MADE EXCUSES FOR HERSELF 

IF IT WASN'T ONE THING IT WAS ANOTHER

WHY WAS SHE STANDING STILL

SHE BLAMED IT ON FEAR 

SHE BLAMED IT ON FINANCIAL SECURITY

SHE NEEDED TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER ACTIONS AND LACK OF 

NO ONE OR NOTHING COULD MAKE HER MOVE

MOVE TOWARDS ALL THE OPPORTUNITIES THAT LIFE HAD TO OFFER

SHE WOULD LEARN WHEN SHE WAS UNFAMILIAR 

SHE WOULDN'T LET ANY ROAD BLOCK STOP HER 

SHE WAS EQUIPPED WITH ALL THE RIGHT TOOLS AND CONNECTIONS 

IT WAS UP TO HER TO USE THEM TO HER ADVANTAGE

TO STAND STILL OR MOVE TOWARDS 

LIFE...

disarray

( top SAVERS, jeans VINTAGE LEE )

SHE WAITED...5 MINUTES TURNED INTO 10 AND 10 INTO 20...SO SHE PICKED UP THE PEN AND WROTE TO CALM HER WEARY MIND. SHE OPENED HER WINDOW AND FELT THE COLD WIND AGAINST HER SKIN. THE SOUND OF THE RAIN FALLING FILLED THE ROOM POUNDING TO THE BEAT OF THE MELODY OF THE MUSIC THAT WAS PLAYING. HER BEDROOM WAS IN DISARRAY, LAUNDRY COVERED  THE FLOOR. SHE COULDN'T SORT THROUGH FROM WHAT WAS CLEAN OR DIRTY CLOTHING. 

WHEN WOULD SHE FEEL AGAIN? WHEN WOULD SHE FIND THE WORDS TO WRITE AND SHARE? THEY WERE JUST WORDS ON PAPER. LETTERS FORMING EMPTY WORDS...HOW COULD SHE EXPRESS HERSELF IF SHE DIDN'T HAVE THE WORDS? EVERYTHING WAS O.K. SHE WASN'T IN LOVE & SHE WASN'T EXPERIENCING HEARTBREAK...SHE HAD ONES WHO LOVED HER AND ONES WHO SHE LOVED...WASN'T THAT ENOUGH TO FEEL? SHE NEEDED MORE...SHE WANTED MORE...SHE KNEW SHE NEEDED, WANTED CHAOS TO FEEL. 

red bejeweled floral denim jacket

(jacket BUFFALO EXCHANGE, dress TROUVE, sandals STEVE MADDEN, socks & eyeglasses AMERICAN APPAREL)

I am absolutely in love with this vibrant red denim jacket I got at work. The bejeweled black flowers are stitched on and give it a DIY patchwork vibe. It is definitely going to be fun styling it as the main focus of an outfit because the color is super bold. I down played the western feel of the jacket by wearing this black TROUVE dress and accessorized with white lace socks and my silver STEVE MADDEN sandals. A very unexpected combo which is how I get dressed almost every day by pairing clothing articles that usually wouldn't go together. It's my favorite way to style outfits because it creatively challenges me to come up with something that makes people think (hopefully), this is where the question "JOBABYY what the hell are you wearing?!?" comes about. 

This way of getting dressed helps me get out of my comfort zone and also helps me with my self confidence. And now I have this platform to express my sartorial adventures and document what I am currently inspired by! 

press play

( pants BUFFALO EXCHANGE, shoes TOPSHOP)

Pressing the "PLAY" button and going for what I want in all aspects of my life this year. I've done quite a bit of self reflection and know where I fall short and where my strengths shine. I know when to ask for help and when to be independent. There are times when I'm striving for the next best thing and times when I get complacent.  

This year is off to a fast start and I felt like I was standing still for the first month. I got caught up with developing bad habits that turned into me harnessing all this disappointment within myself. That is not a life to live! I want to live up to my full potential and not sell myself short with whatever may come my way this year. Because this year your girl is getting her shit together. I am going after what and claiming what is mine to have-all the happiness.