the light at the end of the tunnel

(dress LOVERS + FRIENDS, jacket VINTAGE, booties TBA)
photos by LALENE LEAV

Happiness was at the tip of her fingers. The tools were right in front of her. She thought she had to search for happiness but it was ultimately found within herself. She found herself in the middle of nowhere picking a locked gate. No one and nothing would stop her from getting in to find that happiness even if she found a quick fix it wasn't what she was looking for. She would go through any road block before choosing a quick fix to find her happiness.

She thought it was suppose to be spilling towards her. She was a good giving person where was this happiness?!? Searching far and wide though the dark night would she find it? She didn't understand she had the light to guide her but she was still lost. If she wasn't pointing the light in the right direction she would forever remain lost.

In times of my despair it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know it's there but along the way I make the choice to stay in the darkness. But why would I do that? It's familiar and comfortable because there's a fear with what light may bring. I am at a turning point in my life awhile ago I had to take a step back and really analyze my life and make really hard healthy choices in order to see that light. I ended up quitting my job and taking a break from school to work on myself full time. Many may not understand that concept because we live in a fast pace on to the next one lifestyle where self care isn't always on top of the list. I had to make it a priority or darkness would be all I ever knew. It was probably the toughest life decision because I knew I would have to deal with just myself and face the problems that needed serious attention. I'm not defined by a job or my degree I know I have other aspects that judge my character. I am now ready to choose paths that lead to the light at the end of tunnel.