confetti jacket

(dress and jacket VINTAGE, booties ENZO, beanie ZARA)

She woke up to the light peaking through her bedroom curtains. What time was it? She usually set her alarm but she was in no rush to be anywhere in particular. It was fourteen days into the new year and she slowly was making changes in her life. She still had no new year's resolution just unwritten down goals that floated around in her head. Today was the day she would apply to jobs. She was ready to put herself out there in the job market. She felt and could hear her heart beating faster and faster as she thought about the stress that would come along with just the simple applications. This was perfectly normal though right? 

She pulled her light blue, sea green and pink rose paisley covers over her head. "I can do this" she whispered as she took a deep breath in "I will do this" she said exhaling her dragon breath out "But first I must brush my teeth". She pulled the covers off and got up wearing last nights now wrinkled island print maxi. She almost always fell asleep wearing last nights outfit as her pajamas either that or sleeping in her underwear. In her underwear because she was still working on it, meaning losing a couple of pounds so that she'd fit into any of her PJ bottoms. 

"Today will be different...Today will be better" was her mantra of the day. She said this with a mouth full of toothpaste looking into the bathroom mirror. She wiped the rim around her mouth and changed out of the island print maxi. She decided on a black suede dress with slits on both sides. It hugged her a little too tight. It must have been the weight she gained. She was determined to wear the dress so she threw on a confetti printed vintage jacket that hid her bulging stomach. "Whatever that works" she thought checking herself out in her full length bedroom mirror. 
It was the confetti jacket that hid all her insecurities. She knew it and hoped that she'd work her confidence up on taking the confetti jacket off but she wasn't ready just yet.