let it out in a blog post

(shirt ZARA, skirt THRIFT STORE, boots MICHAEL KORS)

As I looked back at these images my self doubt kicked in and I felt like not even posting these at all. I thought they looked stupid, I looked stupid. I didn't want anyone to see them even though I made a personal commitment to post this ongoing theme of wearing a shirt 7 different ways in 7 days. A week has gone and passed by and I stared at the images only to call it quits. Other factors contributed to this self doubt of posting or even continuing to bother to blog at all. It isn't fun to put yourself out there when you externally and internally are feeling like shit. I started SHEDGAF to start a movement for myself in hopes that others would join me in DGAF-ing but lately all I do is bring myself down with doubt. I wouldn't say I'm at an all time low but I feel as if I'm not the healthiest form of myself. I have been constantly battling body image issues. I thought I had the confidence in the bag but every day is a struggle to bring myself to look at the mirror and really like what I see. I don't see this strong, confident girl who was starry eyed for the world. Instead I see a girl who lacks that self confidence of accomplishing anything at all. What will it take? Will it take shedding a few pounds before I feel great about myself again. But then again what is beautiful and will I actually be happy once I am this version of myself or can it start now? Me loving myself for who I am and accepting that this is only a moment in time before I reach my goals.