what are you doing?!?

(shirt ZARA, jeans VINTAGE, sandals BIRKENSTOCK)

There's something about wearing just a white t-shirt and blue vintage worn in jeans the ultimate classic look.

I've been searching far and wide for a job so hope and pray for me that I find the right one for me!

Applying for jobs always is so gut wrenching. You are putting your best assets on a document and giving it to an individual and saying here "Judge me that I am good enough to be a part of your company" But wait I'm more than what I can put on my resume!!! Why can't we put the fun stuff on a resume and still have that be professional. For example I like to dance even though I don't have the best moves this shows courage which makes me qualified duh!! I'll stick different cylindrical or for that matter any vegetables up my nose this shows perseverance. How you ask? People may doubt this unique skill but I persevere through all the naysayers I can do it and get the job done. A physical characteristic I have is the bottom of my feet (my heels) are rough and crustycrust. This shows that I can withstand long hours on my feet to achieve the task at hand meaning I work hard no matter how callus my feet become therefore I am the ultimate candidate suitable for sooo many jobs now hire me someone yo girl needs cash money stat!!! Also I can only go to so many family parties and gatherings answering the question " WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" and my response is "IM YOLO-ing!" but seriously I'm here blogging to anyone who will listen gots  job recommendations send them my way. 

let it out in a blog post

(shirt ZARA, skirt THRIFT STORE, boots MICHAEL KORS)

As I looked back at these images my self doubt kicked in and I felt like not even posting these at all. I thought they looked stupid, I looked stupid. I didn't want anyone to see them even though I made a personal commitment to post this ongoing theme of wearing a shirt 7 different ways in 7 days. A week has gone and passed by and I stared at the images only to call it quits. Other factors contributed to this self doubt of posting or even continuing to bother to blog at all. It isn't fun to put yourself out there when you externally and internally are feeling like shit. I started SHEDGAF to start a movement for myself in hopes that others would join me in DGAF-ing but lately all I do is bring myself down with doubt. I wouldn't say I'm at an all time low but I feel as if I'm not the healthiest form of myself. I have been constantly battling body image issues. I thought I had the confidence in the bag but every day is a struggle to bring myself to look at the mirror and really like what I see. I don't see this strong, confident girl who was starry eyed for the world. Instead I see a girl who lacks that self confidence of accomplishing anything at all. What will it take? Will it take shedding a few pounds before I feel great about myself again. But then again what is beautiful and will I actually be happy once I am this version of myself or can it start now? Me loving myself for who I am and accepting that this is only a moment in time before I reach my goals.

he is

(hat URBAN OUTFITTERS, shirt ZARA, dress EXPRESS, shoes NIKE)

OUTFIT NUMERO 3: This look is the sporty femme. I wore this EXPRESS pinstripe dress backwards I actually always wear it backwards because I love to display my boobies!! O.K. no ferrealz I love the way the straps come down it adds a stylistic element than wearing it frontwards. That's what I love about finding items like this dress the fact you can wear it more than one way literally. I get the best of both worlds sexy back but bringing it forward or a higher  traditional neckline for the more conservative me. BUT LEZ be real I isn't the conservative type!

HE IS

HE IS THIS GUY WHO HAS A SHYNESS TO HIM QUIETER THAN THE REST

HE IS A WALLFLOWER

HE IS ARTISTIC

HE IS A MUSIC LOVER OF ALL TYPES

HE IS PLAIN WHEN IT COMES TO FASHION STICKING TO THE BASICS

HE IS BLIND WITHOUT HIS EYEGLASSES

HE IS INDEPENDENT

HE IS THE PERFECT GENTLEMAN

HE  IS ONE OF A KIND A HIDDEN GEM

HE WAS MINE FOR A MOMENT IN TIME

HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND

HE WAS MINE  AND I WAS HIS BUT NOW

HE IS HAPPY

i am

(blouse VINTAGE, shirt ZARA, boots NINE WEST, skirt TOPSHOP)

Look 2 I went for my version of relaxed office style. The pencil skirt kept things proper and the ZARA t-shirt contrasted the proper vibe while adding a relaxed look. To break up the black and white I added this granny-like palm print long blouse that also gave the outfit a vintage feel. 

I AM
I AM BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT

I AM BLESSED

I AM FEARLESS

I AM LOVED

I AM MORE THAN WHAT YOU SEE

I AM MORE THAN THE CLOTHES ON MY BACK AND THE SHOES ON MY FEET

I AM A DAUGHTER

I AM A SISTER

I AM A FRIEND

I AM COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN

I AM HAPPY

 

she is happy

(shirt ZARA, denim blouse VINTAGE, skirt NORDSTROM RACK, boots ENZO, necklace TOPSHOP)

This week I decided to style 1 shirt 7 ways in 7 days tune in the rest of the week to see how I transform a simple white t-shirt from ZARA. For this first outfit I decided to keep it super simple with a girly touch. The denim blouse combo with the black and white ensemble gave the look a classic touch. I tied a not in the shirt so the graphic can be displayed. This has got to be my favorite T-shirt I own! The words say it all having an optimistic outlook to life! 

"I am, You are, He is, She is, It is, We are, You are, They are------HAPPY"

what made her happy? where would she find this happy? this was the ultimate question wasn't it? I mean if we all could find the answer to this question would life simply become easier?!? she wanted to grasp the taste, the feel, the touch, the sound and the sight of this happy. she may have had a recollection of what it was to be happy in bits and fragments of her life but it never lasted long did it still count? it would come and go and never stay. it wasn't happy, it couldn't be but if she never had it then how would she know? she made a vow to herself that she would experience it all to get this happy and capture it in a huge jar so she would never run out. she knew there has got to be another feeling then what she felt and she knew happy was at the top of the list. she'd get there. her writing, her dog, the roof over her head, the music she'd dance to, the food in her belly, her past experience of learning and growing was this called happy? she questioned it all. she felt like she was standing still and she wanted is to free fall into happy.